Wanna knock myself out!

I am actually on the verge of defying myself from my life-motto "Good things happen to those who wait"..

It's weird though that when you see yourself so happy you still tend to look for something more than that. I guess that just proves how people really never get contented no matter what (material or non-material).

For one thing i know that i am still on the right track for not giving into the temptation of confessing my feelings to one of my friends. It's crazy like hell when i think about it cuz its just too easy to say, but i keep reminding myself about the fact that saying something like that would either make or break our friendship. And i just wish that i am right to believe that.

Help me see the point in here... background of the story dates way back when we were still kids, freakin grade schoolers -- we were bestfriends, or close friends so to speak and for some twist of fate, their family had to migrate to another country for good. So for 8 long years no communication ever happened. Until one fateful day (once again) he finds my name in some community website and decides to keep in-touch.. blah blah blah, he came to visit for a very short time, we met and started to be really really good friends again..

I am HAPPY! cuz of course he's back in my life (a special part of my life, i'd like to call) but then what's next? Another worthwhile fact to consider is that our friendship means a whole lot to me. And like ive always put in mind and heart that it's more than enough to just be friends not just friends but really good friends with him. (im the girl in the story by the way) It's like i'm really happy that he's here again and to risk our friendship for my feelings? is it worth to even try?

I'd like to think that God might be the one bringing us back together and that's a really good thing to keep in mind before i ruin everything he has planned for both of us and it just leads me back to my life-motto, but the real question is: Is it really worth it to wait??

I really DONT want to screw it, but it makes me itch like crazy.. hahah

Help! shine a really bright light on my blinding eyes!! heheh