about to break

... im soo stressed and at the same time im slacking off. No connection? well that's how i am now, i am so disoriented. I know im not like this..
Its like im sooo busy and my mind has a lot of things to worry about, wakes me in the middle of the night and imagine planning while you sleep... But once i make myself do it, im like, it can wait...

Maybe im insane! What if all these are just a product of my imagination.. Just making myself believe that i actually have tons of schoolwork and intern responsibilities.. When in fact i really dont.. Maybe ive watched too many movies about someone who's life is so fast-paced and that being chased by time is just a normal daily routine..

I'd like to think about it that way, or am i actually just thinking about it... think about it.. why am i even blogging if im "that" busy and stressed?!

Argghhhh... all these thinking just makes me not want to think anymore...

I need a hard slap on my face! anyone!?